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[07 Dec 2006|02:58am] |
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i like boobs..alot
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[02 Jan 2006|03:08am] |
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could you, maybe, stop this from happening?
I know it hurts but you don't have to walk away.
I don't know why I want to stop myself from feeling low.
I don't know why lies know my name and lies I show.
I don't know why I want to stop myself from feeling low.
I don't know why I even try.
I can't be that way when my life looks this grey so I let go.
I've got to leave it alone this time or I'll wallow in my mind.
I've got to leave it alone:
I can't be that way when my life looks this grey so I let go.
I don't understand why clouds sit on my head.
it looks like rain.
I feel shame .
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[25 Dec 2005|06:30pm] |
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well the cats out= of the bag new lj 7hisis7ruecrime
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[15 Dec 2005|12:16am] |
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sooo who wants to do me?
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[15 Nov 2005|12:21am] |
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i hate how my lifes going,i work all the fucking time,i only get to spend 2 days of the week not working,and that just doesnt give me enough time,there things i need to do,but nobody even thinks to care,i miss out on so much,im missing so much in my life,i can never make time to see people i want to see,and that only is 40% of my worries,i never could possibly meet anybody new,i dont think anything in my life will ever change,nothing better will happen,100% of the time i think things are goin in a good direction,its ripped away qwicker than it came,destroying any selfconfidence i have,its pretty sickning to think about
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[03 Nov 2005|02:12am] |
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lip ring=babes galore
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[30 Oct 2005|11:04pm] |
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i have to say i am pretty happy the way iive come into myself,not so happy on how my lifes goin though,i dont have the some things that make life so beautiful to live,and i know if there was anything icould do i would,but theres not ive done all my trying and working,and it wasent ever any use,im fucking spent on people being liers and a number of other things..i just dont need anybody elses bullshit on anything about me thrown in my face,i just need sincerity,i finally comfortable being me,and its good to know im still worthless
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[13 Oct 2005|03:40am] |
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[13 Oct 2005|02:27am] |
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SWEET, WEIRD UGLY GIRLS STAKLING ME ON XANGA,THAT JUST PISSES ME OFF,UGLY PEOPLE PISS ME OFF,SHIT
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[11 Oct 2005|02:00am] |
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yeeeerp,my life is good,im happy,things could be better,but ah well,its time i focused on all the good points,instead of the bad,girls do me wrong,fucking sluts
=)
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[29 Sep 2005|11:22pm] |
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i think imma hurl,i dont feel well at all,im bored,this week end is bound to suck,its damn cold,and im prolly gonna have to hangout with people i dont even like,woot at that,but i did get a big check today,so thats cool i guess,i dunno if iwant to go to a show this weekend,thats weeks show was gay,i cant say i ejnoyed it too much,ahh well i guess ill se how it plays out fingers crossed
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[28 Sep 2005|11:07pm] |
ok so im getting a whole boat load of new clothes,i new pants or tighter belt,but all ive boughten is striped long sleeve polos,i got five,and i really like them,but this is the last week ill be getting off work at nine,now 12:30..this wil suck,but maybe then i can move out an atcually be an adult,get started on my life,and for that im pretty excited,and when this happens everyone come over,it will be cool i swear
=)
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| AH!!! |
[27 Sep 2005|01:00pm] |
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I FOUND MY CAMERA CORD!
YAY!!!
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[26 Sep 2005|10:08pm] |
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wow im pretty stupid i hate when i do ir-rash-onal things,god,when i feel good about myself...thats what happens..fuck..hell..damn..all ive been thinging about all day is how when anything comes easy,its pretty much not worth it,well for me at least,it all seems so much better,when it takes time,i dunno everything in my head is in a jumble,im not sure if this makes sence,nothing that has came into my life with eaz has not lasted or been worth anything,and in the end i regret it,when you strive for something,you charish it sooo much more,and i havent taken this into cosideration until today,and now i think i always will,the fight for something you want is so worth it once you relize how much greater the outcome will be,i just need time to think.bye.
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[25 Sep 2005|08:29pm] |
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hey to a sweet weekend..woo hoo
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[23 Sep 2005|12:05am] |
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hearing good news,is really good,heh,but i think my foot may be broken,but hopefully not,so weekend will be kEwl harhar STILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLREMAINS OMY GAWD!uyVTGV1TTt11!
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[21 Sep 2005|01:11am] |
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hahaha moms think im cute,GAY
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| im not giving up,more like realizing |
[14 Sep 2005|12:05pm] |
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fuck fuck fuck im gay fuck,for me to wake up most of the time is pointless,everythings the same,nothing good stays,people change,everyday is exactly the same,it feels like ive lost everything,along with my heart,i just dont feel it anymore,it wasent really serving a purpose,all i did was abuse it,im glad i see that now,i just need to find an exit,to this never-ending routine..
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| ouch |
[13 Sep 2005|12:20am] |
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I'll open up my wrists to let you in and keep you where you belong. Nail my
hands into the oak if I can never touch your face again. Cardiac paralysis.
I cannot breathe. Swallow my tounge if I can't say the words that will save
your life. No matter what always remember you did this to me. I'm left with
when you turned and walked away. No matter what always remember you did this
to me. You've driven me to this. You've turned my heart jet black. Reopen
the wounds and let them drain. Swing the sledge to the mainframe. And to the
one that stopped my heart. I must return the crush. Pull up the floorboards
and expose the ghost of my first love.
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